I wasn’t planning on going all the way back, just past everything current. I needed the spelling of a middle name, but scroll back I did.

Scroll, scroll scroll all the way back. Back to before. Before our lives changed forever. Even before she penned those wise words “…..not being under Jesus Christ you will never find peace! So that’s why it’s important to find that Brightness & learn and understand” written on a folded letter that her sister found tucked away amongst her things.

Yes it was our sweet Janel’s FB page. I don’t have hardly any live videos and those on there were only her voice and of her precious new baby girl she spoke to. Finally I found the spelling but I watched every video and read every post and mostly, besides how much it made me miss her, they just were filled with such a mother’s love for her baby. My heart ached and still aches as I write this and it was 2 days ago.

I’m looking at the 2nd proverb and I see the wisdom, the understanding and the treasure of Jesus Christ that our sweet daughter spoke of.

The scene would play in my head, over and over and over again. I would wonder, imagine what went on in that car those last few minutes. The arguments, threats, anger and for our daughter there must have been fear as well. But I wasn’t there when the abuse and cruelty of a man would cause our precious daughter to come out of a moving car.

No, I wasn’t there even though I couldn’t ride in a car for a long while without going there, in my head. But in that car that December, she needed help, she was the one weak and needy; needing God to deliver her out of the hand of the wicked one who neither knew nor did he understand because he walked in darkness.

On that day God did deliver her out of the hand of the wicked and into the hands of our loving Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. The foundations were shaken, they are shaken because of sin & darkness. God in His mercy rescued!