I am on a journey and I travel this journey with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! He has guided me all my days, even the ones where I tried to find my own paths and justify them with every part of my soul. I can’t go back to the beginning, where it started because it’s already been too long and too much has happened so I will start with today. I am longing for Him like never before and it doesn’t come easy and without much battle in my mind as to how. I know that I can find Him by reading His words, they are life, living, active, sharper than the two edged sword, piercing even to the division of my soul and spirit. I have tried to start reading several times this year. Parts of Genesis, 1st, 2nd, 3rd John, Jude and Revelation. I have listened to Joshua and part of Judges and part of 1st and 2nd Samuel. We are going through 1 Corinthians in church. It’s all very good but it’s not enough. I have been thinking about my purpose here and how it pertains to the Gospel. I know that I have been chosen before the foundation of the world, to be holy and without blame before Him in love. But what is my part, why is it that I lack words to speak even when opportunity seems … well, opportune. I feel like if the words would come to me I would speak them. I thought maybe if I start this blog it might help me to gather my thoughts into some kind of order. Maybe to express my desires to be all that God wants me to be. I have started a book by John Piper, ‘Hunger for God’. I am hopeful that it will help me to find some of the answers I have been looking for.