Physical pain, emotional pain, pain that wrenches the gut and causes the mind to be disillusioned.

Today my pain is in my ear and I’ve been to the Dr. Taken all my medicine. Still I have pain in my ear. There were a couple of days that I thought I might die Not because the pain was so bad I couldn’t take it but because people die and what if it wasn’t my ear at all but it was my brain causing my ear to hurt. How long will I live any way? I know my life is short but how short. So I began to work on my children’s boxes more diligently. I made sure all the letters I’ve been writing them were placed in their special boxes in my closet with their names. I ordered a Bible and write a few more things in a booklet. Then I felt better. I do believe there is something going on in my ear and I might have to deal with it on Monday but I no longer feel like I might…. well you know…. die…..soon.